THE FLAME Newsletter 1/2000 Issue

Updated : 21/08/2001

FGBMF Malaysia Newsletter  Cyber Edition

Jan-Mar 2001

Testimony - A Former Atheist's Testimony
By Tan Kim Hoe (part extract from VOICE 1st issue)

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I was born into a family steeped in ancestral worship and among twelve brothers and sisters I was the most rebellious. From a young age, I did not want to follow my mother in her Taoist practices, nor did I believe in God or ghosts. In my secondary school days, leftist thinking gained popularity and I was attracted to it. I became entrenched in Darwin's Theory of Evolution, and I grew to detest superstitious practices and regarded them as foolish and backward. Evolutionism, taken into my rebellious nature, was like adding fuel to fire. I became very opposed to religion and superstitions. 

However what made me detest religion most was my own wife's superstitious beliefs which made my life miserable.

Our life was so inhibited by all sorts of superstitions that it was a mental torture. I hated to the extreme the hypocrisy, greed, futility and deception of traditional religion. But just when I was tormented to the utmost by religion, it became the turning point in my life; God rescued me from mental torture and led me and my wife to lie beside restful, quiet waters.

It was thirty years since I had first come to Kuala Lumpur from Singapore to engage in retail business with my wife working alongside. We had spent all our time in the business and thereby neglected the proper upbringing of our children. 

As my wife's brother was in England, we sent our eldest daughter there to further her studies. He was a fellowship leader in a church and invited our daughter to join some of the group activities. She led a well-disciplined lifestyle, took her lessons seriously and took part in the Bible study and prayer meetings. After she accepted the Lord and became a Christian, her outlook and values changed and she became more confident and her studies improved.

My second daughter had studied law and she too accepted the Lord. Our children had become Christians first and kept on praying for the two of us to believe in the Lord Jesus. Our second daughter persisted in sharing the gospel with her mother, urging her to accept the Lord as Saviour. It was difficult task but nevertheless, my wife finally accepted the Lord as Saviour.

As my wife and I were too busy doing business we did not spend time with our third and only son and as a result we spoilt him. He was naughty even as a young child. He later became addicted to computer games and lost interest in his studies. Our fourth child was equally trouble.

We suffered much for our neglect in disciplining our children early but because, one after another, they became Christians, their lives were radically transformed. From problem children they became new persons striving for excellence. My family experienced first-hand the miraculous power which faith in Jesus brought.

As I grew older and read more, my thinking began to change. On top of that I also came into contact with Christians from different walks of life. All these brethren gave me a fresh understanding of Christianity.

On Father's Day one year, my eldest daughter gave me a Bible and I started to read it.

I started going to Church and listened to sermons and took part in Bible Studies. Doubts which I used to harbour began to be clarified. With my children's prayer for me I finally came to accept Jesus Christ as my Lord and Saviour.

Today this faith in Jesus has changed my thinking and behaviour. It has also transformed us from a typical city family of quarrelling parents and problem children into a blessed and joyful Christian family. Of course, this did not happen overnight. What happened was that this faith in Jesus gave us an example to follow, a hope to strive for and the Holy Spirit to enable us to gradually transform our lives for the better.

Misconception had caused me to reject Christianity, but a proper understanding by the wisdom of God through the Holy Spirit helped me to accept it. The blessings it has brought to my family are beyond all expectations! Praise God! 

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